To Love Ellianna: A Note To You After A Decade

Conception Of The Heart

Conception Of The Heart

"For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also." - Matthew 6:21

It is amazing how God does not limit conception only to the womb. I am a perfect example of this unconventional, yet equally profound miracle. It was approximately 22 years ago when a little girl from China was placed in my heart. It is there that she has grown until God said it would be time for delivery in the near future. That message came on January 18, 2011 to be exact. The mysterious thing is that even as long as I have carried her there, the news meant she would surprisingly yet pleasantly come early to us. What we thought could possibly be another 5 years, suddenly turned into 5 months. Another perfect illustration of our little thoughts, plans, and ways compared to our Great God's! He never ceases to amaze us! And for those who might wonder, yes there are excruciating emotional labor pains!!! So here we are, and although this is by no means the beginning, and certainly not the end, we welcome you to join us on our mission...... to love Ellianna!

We will keep you posted, as our journey continues to China on May 24th, 2011!

Saturday, May 29, 2021

A Note To You After A Decade

It's been ten very short years since the day we met. You were so scared and resistant. I too was scared and hesitant to dive in. I was afraid my eager anticipation to be your Mom would only cause you more pain and grief as the whole world as you knew it would soon be upended. But I was still your designated Mom in spite. Many people contend that "I chose you", but the real truth is, I can't take one ounce of credit for the family that God intricately orchestrated. He chose you and He chose me, and here we are, daily living out this lineage of the heart. Ultimately, His heart. It's been both beautiful and unseemly. It's been complex and yet complete. It's been dark and radiant. You've grown. I've grown. And we keep forging ahead my dearest daughter.